just a lil update and some surveys cause i'm bored and not tired.
i can't stop thinking bout you every night, picturing your body laying next to mine. what's it gonna take for you to open up cause i wanna know everything about your world.
so if the lights in the sky come crashing down, i still can find your love even in the crowd but will you remember me?
i gotta tell you about a million trillion times, baby you're the best thing in my life.
starting to feel like a deja vu. i remember being here, must be a glitch in the matrix.
i just wrote a letter to you. i'm stating all the facts, my feelings getting stronger, i can't seem to fight back.
ever since i met you, i knew you'd be there to save me.
you alone is what i need to make this life complete.
every second that i'm with you, it's just backing up the truth that you're someone that i need and i don't ever want to lose.
home is anywhere with you.
every time i lay beside you, i lose track of the time. nothing else matters whenever you arrive. i'm just being honest with you so am i out of line? cause everything you are is what i've been trying to find.
What's your favorite feature of the last person who held your hand? i honestly don't even remember who that was.
When was the last time you were told you were beautiful? no one.
What do you hear right now? just what i am-kid cudi ft chip tha rip
Could you go a day without eating? i did today lol
Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a J? yep.
What bugs you about the last person you dated? lol a lot of stuff hence why we're no longer dating.
Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you? not sure who that was.
Be honest, do you miss anyone? yeah i do.
Have you ever kissed a brown eyed person? yes.
What color are your eyes? blue.
Do you remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed? yeah i do.
How did you get one of your scars? cuts.
Do you like the snow? fuck no i don't.
Have you ever slapped someone? yup.
Where did your last hug take place? don't remember.
Are you taller than your mom? no.
Do you look more like your mom or dad? apparently i'm a mirror image of my mother.
Is anything bothering you at the moment? yeah.
Looking back, did you ever think you would be where you’re at in life now? lmfao no.
Are you in a good mood? not really.
Are you a jealous person? no.
What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? i dunno, i was drunk haha.
Were you single two birthdays ago? yeah.
Are you afraid to tell your true feelings? yeah, i never do. no one has convinced me they deserve it. and i don't like talking about that shit anyways.
Has anything happened to you in the past month that made you really mad? of course.
Is there someone on your mind that shouldn't be? yeah.
Have you ever had sex with someone the same night you met them? LMFAO yeah.
Do you think anyone has feelings for you? not sure.
Is someone of the opposite sex on your mind? yeah.
Do you still talk to the person who broke your heart the worst? hasn't been broken.
Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around? nope.
Do you want to start over with anyone? nope.
Do you like when people play with your hair? i fucking LOVE when people play with my hair.
Do you hate the last person you kissed? not hate.
Have you kissed anyone in '12 that actually means something? no.
Have you ever felt replaced? yeah.
Why are you not going for the person you want to? lol it's complicated. neither of us 'date' per say.
Are you looking forward to something as of right now? hockey game tomorrow!!!
What color eye shadow do you wear? i don't
Have you ever worn false eyelashes? yeah.
At the moment, are you more warm or cold? warm.
Do you find guys with facial piercings attractive? depends, some guys with lip rings...UNF.
When was the last time you saw snow? today.
Who are your favorite people to talk to when you’re down? no one.
Have you ever crimped your hair? nope.
Has anyone ever tried to shove their religion in your face? nope.
Who was the last person you sat next to? jenn
How old will you be in 10 months? 22.
What did you do today? woke up, went to work, came home and fucked around and now i'm still doing nothing.
Who was the last person who texted you? lee.
Who can you tell anything to? no one.
What are your plans for tomorrow? work, hockey game.
What are you thinking about right now? my hockey game.
Do you smile often? yes.
When was the last time you cried? not sure.
Do you prefer an ocean or pool? never been to an ocean lol
How long is your hair? like at my jawline. i dunno, it's hard to explain.
Who told you they loved you last? not sure.
Last person you hugged? no idea.
Are you wearing make-up? nope.
If you could have something right now, what would it be? $$$$$$$$$
What is the last thing you thought about? nothing i dunno haha
never thought that i would still be bullied in my 20s. this is bullshit yo, i'm sick of it. done. this life is such a hassle.
was i left behind? someone tell me, tell me i survived.
you ever had one of those friends that you put all your trust in, only a couple years or someone you grew up with and then they backstab you, actin' like that shit was nothing, like they never really had you and then you disgusted with yourself for even being friends with someone who was pretending. anytime they needed help, your hand was there to lend it. no detection, feelin' stupid to not ever suspect it. well they did a fuckin' good job or trickin' just to blend in. one day they're your best friend and then they're gone in seconds. to feel a little better, tell yourself you learned a lesson but that shit affected your life, they way you view it.
this life is fuckin' sinful, wishing it'd be more simple. now your future's got a wall, built up with trust issues then you realize when you're alone, it really hits you. you got no real friends and nobody there to miss you.
we should take a walk someday, dream about what we could've been.
i need to be alone like the way you left me.
control yourself, take only what you need from it.
i tried, you tried, we tried. all of the times we had together, we shoulda known nothing lasts forever.
shoulda looked both ways before i crossed you, i guess i thought i never coulda ever lost you.
whatsup everyone. sorry i've been busy, i asked for more hours at work cause i have nothing else to do and no friends so i'm just bored at home anyways. mad cash yo.
cause we'll never have to fight again. there's no reason now cause all you need is love and love is all you've ever found.
together we'd be bold, our hand would never fold. when our eyes meet we can see each others soul.
we are the newborn, the world knew all about us. we are the future and we're here to stay.
did i tell you i loved you today?
you're running away, far from my life. i need you to save me and be by my side. i'm ready to love.
i'm still chasing dreams, releasing my tears. forever to hold you, forever to love you. you'll be crying for me
you were like home to me. i don't recognize this street.
yeah, i know you care. i see it in the way you stare. as if there was trouble ahead and you knew it.
i know it wasn't always wrong but i've never known a winter so cold. no, i don't want my hands in the cold but i still hope cause this is how things ought to have been.
this life goes on, man, that’s one thing about it. this life goes on, dawg, that's one thing about it. i’m feelin’ what your sayin’, you’re trying to get around it, but life goes on pimpin, the wise don’t doubt it.
called you twice today, feelings haven't changed. thought by now i would've fallen out of love with you. called you twice in case you still feel the same. thought by now you would've fallen back in love with me.
all the world can't stop me now. i'm all for you all of me now so come and take my hand tonight. i'm lost for you, i'm lost in time.
i can't pretend, can't pretend it doesn't hurt. i must admit, i am the one that needs you most.
and if i have you, my heart is complete. and if i have you, what else will i ever need?
five years of my mistakes and this is where it leads, a broken picture frame and words i did not mean.